I looked over to Fifi who was in her own little world before focusing my gaze on Michael. I wanted to speak but a Venus Industries 'Lulu' brand ball-g...g made that impossible.It seemed like an age before Michael finally spoke to me:"Please don't try to fight it" he told me. "That will only make things harder for both of us."He put his hand on my forehead and began to stroke my hair in a fashion akin to how a husband would his wife if she'd been given 24 hours to live. In a way this image wasn't. Still, he refused. If the management comes to know about this, he will lose his job. So I paid him another 10 K. Finally, he agreed.I told him just casually take his order in and let his mobile record what’s happening inside. He placed the phone on his front shirt pocket and went inside. After two minutes, he came out. I took his phone and saw Pooja and her Ex were sitting in bed while my friend kept the sandwiches on the table.This is what I wanted. I took the video from him and told him to. There were times that I would walk into the kitchen during potluck and she would bend over to take food out of the oven and I would see her big voluptuous Double D breasts cleavage and part of her bra as she bent forward picking things up. After church was over, I would go home and masturbate imagining what I saw, Kat’s lovely big breast hanging down and that hott cleavage! I was cumming while fantasizing Kat almost every night in bed for three years. Many years later and after many families. My first venture out in fem was in the early 70s. I was not very good butseemed to pass about 75% of the time. I have purged my clothes many timesbut after the last end to my dressing, I kept all of my clothes and hairpieces. In 1980, I increased my wardrobe and spent every weekends inwomen's clothes. My make up and clothes selection were still inadequate andmy evening ventures were spent sitting in the corner of gay bars. I had nodesire for anal sex, but I did want to be admired by and be with.