.. Probably- probably staying in Cardiff,with my friends and, umm, girlfriend..." Okay," mum says, before smiling genuinely at me for the first time i...many, many years.None of us stay up for much longer after the 'discussion', opting forearly nights instead, though despite this, and how exhausting the day'sbeen, I still struggle to sleep in the house that was once a home, butis now totally alien to me. I'm just thankful I'm not sleeping in 'my'room- it would've been impossible for me to sleep. She was a little relived but was still scared. By the night time most guests were gone and only close family members were left. I was still hot to do it with mami but I knew it would not be a good idea. It got late was around 2 in the morning but was still awake. I was in the balcony of the room I was supposed to sleep with my cousins.I got a sms on my phone from mami asking me to come to the kitchen. I went there and she was there but lights were off. She hugged me tightly and said all is. When we got inside, the hostess took us to our table. Kara took ahold of my hand as we walked through the restaurant, It was busy all the tables were full. I could feel all the people looking at us. I heard one lady say; “they shouldn’t let lesbians in here!”We just kept on walking to the back room.The waitress had to push some numbers on the key pad so we could get in the first set of doors, we had to wait until the first set of doors were closed before she could pushed some numbers into the. " I smiled and looked around the table. My mom and dad sat at one end of the long table while Robbie's dad and Tami's mom sat at the other end. I stood in the center of one side, Tami and Traci on either side of me. Peter sat next to Traci and Mikee and Kelly next to Tami. Across from me was Robbie. Bobbi Bradley and her parents were on her left. Her other adopted sisters on her right."I'm also thankful there's no kids table, 'cause I'm pretty sure Mom would have banished me there." You got.