Because I'd remembered someone saying years ago that between givingbirth to Jeanette and me, mum had suffered four miscarriages.And that I might have ...een the victim of a fifth were it not for a drugcalled Testranol.*As Newburn Grammar School was located on the south-western outskirts ofthe town and we lived on the very northern edge of the built-up area, itusually took me about three-quarters of an hour to walk home. I onlycaught the bus in the direst weather; not only did it have the. Zoe was rubbing Hannah’s bottom and Hannah was hugging Zoe hard, smiling. They looked at each other and kissed on the lips. A short peck but it seemed to mean so much more.“Come on, I’ll put some cream on that bottom of yours “ Zoe said to Hannah and they held arms and went out of the lounge and up the stairs.Madge went across to Jeff and put her arms around his neck. “Look here mister, I need some loving. Are you up for it?”Jeff looked like he couldn’t believe what had just been said. He never. But even if he wanted to find a girl of his age at school. There was one girl he liked in particular - Jenny which at one time he thought she was going to let him fuck her. But she said no when he tried to feel her. Sure she was pretty but Jenny was just not his mother. Even before all of this, when he did look at girls on the internet, he preferred older women, who looked like his mother. Again, Mark found himself thinking of his mother's nude body. How pale her skin was. How lovely her. .. Well, you know, he has a nice dog... No of course he hasn't shown any interest, when do they ever? I'll think of something."The voice wails, "I am gone."He hears his sister again and he knows she is actually speaking and that her words are getting lodged in his ghastly memory to be replayed over and over. She is on the phone again: "I was never been so shocked in my life. I'm sure it was him. That guy I told you I was maybe interested in? He was there in the cemetery necking with a girl.