I held her tightly, my chin resting atop her sun-colored strands. I could feel her discomfort, her complaints, her sullenness dissipating like a thin ...og penetrated by unfettered sunlight. Her joy at witnessing this spectacle of Nature was almost tangible, and viewing this uncompromised display through her eyes, viewing this uncompromised display for the first time in well over a decade, caused my mind to fill with memories… memories of those who had shared this view with me previously,. You’ve got a great debt to repay and you’ll have to repay it with humiliation.’ ‘Do you have any idea how fucked up that sounds?’ ‘Do you have any idea how fucked up you are, Jenny?’ ‘Yes.’ Her tears began again as she took another bite. He sat closer to her and began again to stroke her hair and console her. She pushed his hand away from her face as he brushed away a few hairs that had matted against her wet cheek. Jenny turned toward him with red eyes. ‘Don’t touch me,’ she said, ‘what is. It was a cool autumn night and the short cut led me through a moonlit cemetery. It was poorly maintained with lots of bushes and trees and fallen down headstones. I stopped at a small alcove and sat on a park bench to have a cigarette and enjoy the gothic ambience.I noticed men were walking about the pathways between the graves and were disappearing into some bushes. I followed and realised I had come across a circle jerk. 5 or 6 men were in a circle jerking and a number were in the bushes. " He rubbed his hand on my thigh and leaned against me. "Even if it's just you."That last bit tore me up. I couldn't make myself pick between them and he knew it. I leaned against his shoulder and tucked my feet underneath me. He bent down and kissed the top of my head."She is my best friend. I don't know what I'd do without her, especially now." You don't have to do without her. I'm not willing to cut her off either. It's just that I've decided I'm also not willing to continue to have a long.