"Well, now you can jerk off if you want," he snorted scornfully, as he unlocked the door and left abruptly. So that's what I decided to do. After al..., I reasoned, I deserved to get my rocks off, considering all I had just gone through.I decided to use one more dollar, and proceeded to give myself a well-deserved wank.And then I heard the soft yet unmistakable tap tapping on my door. Annoyed, I figured my rude fuck buddy had forgotten his wallet or his keys or something, so I opened the door. And he said I have to leave tomorrow.I came home and told it to my wife. We both were feeling sad as it was the first time we are going to separate, and that too for at least 3 nights (though we were married for 10 months now we still are horny). I had never been to Solapur. It is not to tourist place for sure so I was not taking my wife with mePeople who are from Maharashtra know that train connectivity is very poor within Maharashtra and bus traveling is better. I checked for an ac sleeper. He was like 6'3". Maybe220 lbs. His arms were huge. So were his thighs. The guy was built. Hehad a goatee and looked like he hasn't shaved in a few days. This guywas ready for work. He was there to beat the crap out of the baseball.My eyes moved around the field and there seem to be 9 other guys on thefield just like him. Strong manly men. My dream really was to play thePhils someday. But as I looked down at myself I felt a sadness wash overme. I was nothing like those MEN! As I looked down I. I was an intelligent girl so I should have got myself on the pill of course, but I was shy and Jason was happy to use a condom... for a while.Looking back there are so many 'should haves' and 'what ifs': I should have gone on the pill, I should have insisted on him using a condom, what if I'd had the courage to end the relationship, what if I hadn't got pregnant...In the end my pregnancy miscarried at five months, which was four months after Jason had last said a civil word to me. I was such a.