I am still a bit lightheaded, but I look straight at you. My emotions get the better of me and I feel tears welling up in my eyes. I am not sure why I...m crying. The intensity of the things we have been through together is affecting me. I move closer to you. I need your strong arms around me. I need to feel safe. I slide even closer yet. I kiss your lips softly, watching for a sign. Your face remains calm and unemotional. I am moving slowly, and put my head on your chest. I press the rest of my. "When it was done, we were both lying there and I didn't feel guilty. I felt like I needed to look at the time, to be back home in time to get the kids from school. It was like ... I'd done it, it had happened, now I needed to protect myself from possible fallout. There was almost no guilt, at least not then. I just got up and went to shower, and Jordan started telling jokes. I mean, jokes. I know. It sounds so stupid now, but at the time, it really helped relax me. They were so dumb. I. ”She nodded.“There was that time when Lisa freaked me out, she called me at work after we first kissed,” Merry said. “I was worried she was going to be really angry with me, and you, because of what we did. Of course, that was when I realized your relationship was quite different from anything I had heard of before.”“So, you should know I have certain rules; I just don’t sleep with any woman who might be interested in me. At one stage, my philosophy was I would sleep with a woman, have sex with. And by going on our dates on the same night of the week, we’d managed to keep several weekday evenings a week for ourselves. We knew that time together, just the two of us was really important. Otherwise, the games with Jason and Hannah might dominate our lives and harm our own relationship.Neil and I were also very aware of the need to make sure own relationship was exciting and fresh, and we worked harder at it than we’d done for many years. Now we seemed so alive from our new lifestyle and.