It was not the pain, almost unendurable though it still was, that caused this sign of emotion, but shame. The warm-hearted sympathy that this girl had...just expressed served to remind her of all the unkind things she had said about her in the past and about so many other of the village girls. At this moment there was nothing she wanted more than to have them accept her as a friend. She had witnessed, with amazed and growing admiration, their stoicism as they had descended time and again into the. 'She said the same back to me and we ended up just looking into each other's eyes.Amber came back and bumped into the table to get our attention. We looked at her in surprise. "You two need to get a room." Ha Ha!" Ashlee said loud enough for all of us to hear."This is Alex. Alex, this is my sister Ashlee and her fiancé Paul."I stood up as best I could considering how many people were around us and that I'm a fairly big guy you know. I held out my hand to him "Alex. Good to meet you."He shook it. But if I undid a couple, the front began to gape a little, showing off the tops of my breasts (obviously I wasn’t going to wear a bra!) And if I leant over a little, it hung open even more, and with a couple more buttons undone, anyone peeking inside would get a full view of my tits, little pink nipples and all. I got a bit tingly just looking at myself! The most frustrating thing was waiting for a hot sunny day, so I could go out and mix with all the other casually-dressed tourists in central. Thoughts rambled though my head, and if you had asked me what day it was, or even what I was wearing, I wouldn't have been able to tell you.Or possibly even focus on your face.The latest bottle empty, I had been laying on my back staring at the fan slowly spinning on the ceiling. Empty. Devoid of any interest in - well - anything really.I had stopped going to the pub to drown my sorrows, and had started just drinking at 'home'. When I first started going to the pub, it had been for a few drinks.