It was not erect. I found nothing about the situation the least bit arousing and I wondered if my new physical attributes went a bit further than he�...d been led to expect.The long years of parochial training and endless church obligations stressed my sense of logic as I stood there, exposed. And then I began to feel as though I was a new normal and that sort of made me mad. Why couldn’t they be honest?I had already lost a bunch of weight with the work regime but of course my penis had only. Maine use aankhenband karne ko kaha..Phir maine lund ko press kara but uski chut bohut tight thi…Usne kaha ki usne aaj tak kisi se karwaya nahi h…Main man hi man khus hua…Socha aaj to iski jamke lunga…Maine thoda cream uski chut pe thoda apne lund pe lagaya..Phir uske kamar ko jor se pakad kar ek jor ka short laga kar pura lund ek hi bar me andar dal diya..Wo ro padi…Chikhne lagi..Maine uski panty ko utha k uske muh me thus diya..Aur jor jor se dhakke marne laga…Wo apne hath pair marne. Just as I was about to, he stopped again. The denial drove me crazy. I looked down at him; he could see the wanting in my eyes.I whispered to him, "Please, Sir, I need to feel the release."He smiled and said, "Not yet, my pet." He picked me up and headed to another room. He placed me down on a bed.I thought, 'Yes, finally.'He untied the rope that kept my arms down. He laid me back on the bed. He used the rope to tie my arms to the headboard. He moved down my body and removed my skirt. I felt. .."Have you tried to control the feelings? Tried to control the process? No, you panicked and went looking for someplace else to put them so you wouldn't have to deal with them. You are one chicken-shit sonofabitch ain't'cha?I was going from feeling nothing to being overwhelmed by feelings. Unpleasant feelings to be sure, but I'd dealt with worse in the past, hadn't I?Could anything be worse than feeling someone you love suffer and die?Could anything feel worse? I'd survived that ... how had I.