She got up and went in to toilet (she felt like peeing, which she told me later). I got so scared and slept instantly. Of course i couldn’t sleep th...nking what will happen next if she is ok, is she is not ok, and is she complains to mom dad. All this things made me awake whole night and i was awake late. I slept after a lot of struggle and woke up in morning very late.She came back in evening and i was avoiding facing her. She came and spoke to me very normally as if nothing happened. Sanju em. I'm supposed to be the strong one. And I've only ever cried in front of her a few times, but they were never like this. My eyes are streaming and hot, and sobs are racking my body so hard they're like blows. And I just thank God I'm not making a sound, just these wet gasping noises when I have to breathe.Carly's stroking my hair and making soothing noises, but her heart's beating so fast I can feel it through her tank top against my arm."Shhhh, Sam, it's okay. It's gonna be okay." And I know. Ko ghar abbaad karna hai to yahi aik rasta hai . Or wasay be kese ko kiya pata chalay ga mare aik rishtay daar hai tum be janti ho osay magar naam nahi baata sakti osne be aysa kiya or aaj khush hai . Ab to oski saas bolti hai aik or bacha ho or wo haans parte hai . Tum maa baiti cool mind say soch lu jab tak seetha edhar hai agay aapki marze or phone band ho gaya . Main be sooch main par gaya phir main mom kay room ki taraf chal para un say pochta hon to jab main door tak poncha to didi bool. "Who is it?" I asked, my voice sounding way too high pitched. I got asudden feeling of embarrassment when I spoke."It's me, can I come in?" said Tom.I really didn't want him to see me, though I didn't know why. It wasn'tlike he hadn't seen me just the day before or several times beforethat."Now's not a good time," I told him frankly."Something wrong?" he asked."No, I don't think so..." I replied, not really knowing if anything wasin fact wrong.Nothing had changed since the day before, but.