Once the services was headed, and people left, it was just Erin and me. I was leaving the next day, taking the late bus. I went for a walk to give Eri... space and time to grieve. I lost track of time and must have been gone foe too long, as Erin called me to come back. We watched videos and looked at pictures. I drank for the first time in years. I did it to honor Tom. I didn't notice how much, but knew I was tipsy, as we talked about c***dren. Tom was excited to have them, but his work left. I began to ask them questions about their friend, it turns out they were all younger than me and at Uni. There was Ryan, the boy who had gone to get the drinks, Reece and Harry or Haz for short. They all had similar looks to them, black hair and blue eyes and pretty muscular. I asked if they were related in anyway, it turned out Reece was Ryan’s cousin but Harry was no relation. Just as it began to get quiet again between the three of us, Ryan returned with the drinks, I had a quick glimpse at. She could tell I was upset and slightly nervous, Hey, come here little bro she pulled me into a hug and told me everything would be alright. I was unresponsive. Hey, do you want to play mommy and daddy? she chimed in. She was always up for playing some type of game. But, its bedtime, wont mom get mad? I questioned, not wanting to get in trouble for not going to bed when told to. Well mommies and daddies go to bed together, we can still play while were in bed. Here, Ill show you, get ontop of me. The sex life in the bed also suffers. I remember the days when we were just married. Anil used to be very caring in bed. He handled me like a flower. But lately, his work was getting hectic and he looked at sex as just the way of releasing his stress out. He hardly bothered about my sexual feelings. After every act of love making, he would just doze off leaving me unsatisfied and wanting for more. I would then resort to masturbating. Sex was becoming very monotonous. I don’t even remember when.