.." Carol threw himself onto thecouch and began crying loudly.Mary let her son cry as she shooed Edward to his room. She stood overhim for some time u...til his crying began to soften. Kneeling down onthe floor beside his head she caressed his hair. "Look my sweetie thiswent much further than I had intended but I don't see any alternativesat the moment. Before you say anything.... yes it is my fault and yes,I did some very stupid things today but what's done is done. Tomorrowmorning I will call. Once I finished my shower, I dried off and slipped into myblack silk robe. I fumbled through my bag to find the softcuffs and blindfold, all part of my fantasy. I only had afew minutes until the men arrived so as pre-arranged, Iopened the hotel door and let it rest against the door jambut made sure that it did not latch. I then went to the bed,putting aside my robe and climbed in. I put on the blindfoldand lay the cuffs next to my hands for the first man to attachme in whatever position he. He knows this, of course.With the difficult decisions that would have to be made for us to get pregnant by current medical means, I've had to think hard about what kind of parent I would be and if I really want to give up my current life in order to raise children.The truth is, for me, the price is too high for me to have children by another biological father or for us to adopt. I'm also not sure anymore if I would want to have children even if it were possible with my husband.Actually, I think. It could possibly assist in working off this excess of male hormones.’ That, at least, was enough to convince the second guard to put his gun away. The two of them were laughing, trading remarks in Russian, words that Tom had never learned in his class in high school. They were starting to take off their clothes. ‘Initiation?’ Tom asked. ‘What initiation?’ It was, at best, a rhetorical question. The guards had removed their suit jackets, revealing, as he had expected, holsters underneath. They.