Her tongue parts my lips and she explores my womanly mouth and I do the same. We separate from the kiss before anybody around us notices anything too...much out of the norm, but with a silent promise from Joan that there's more to come.We walk through the mall with our hands intertwined like young lovers as she takes me to the lingerie store that overlooks the food court. We go in and she starts picking out lovely things for me to wear. I ask with mock-innocence where I would be wearing them. . .." The implication was clear -- these weren't babies! "They get soft, too..." I haven't seen Pete's soft much," Wanda murmured. "Given what it means, I kind of like it that way." Oh?" Mary looked blank."It means he wants me..." Oh." 'Duh!' Mary thought to herself, embarrassed that she should be so stupid."Why don't you suck one?" Wanda offered. "Get the first time out of the way." Well, I don't know how..." This is how you learn!" Wanda chided. "Take it in your mouth. You can start out with. Then as before I asked, "Where are you?" expecting, hoping, an answer. All I felt was a pang of despair I guessed was from Peter. I strained along with my friends for the slightest sound but we heard nothing.Once more I assured myself, Peter and Sara, saying, "I'll find you Sara."I will not give up."I will find you and help you."We all waited a bit more until Stacey asked our group, "So where do we go from here?"I guess I was the first to think anything and all I could muster up was, "Don't. Cindy didn’t say much but returned the hug and was kind of glowing.The next day it hit her.“Oh my God,” she said. “The first time I ever fucked a black guy and it was at the worst time in my cycle. I’m so nervous and scared but won’t know until it's time for my period.”I let her know I was there and would be there no matter what happened. When the subject of the “morning-after pill” came up I talked her out of that. In some ways it was kind of cute seeing her emotions. Finally, the fateful week.