It was about 9pm, suddenly stuck to me that there is nobody in the hostel and I’ve never gone inside and was curious how it was inside. So I decided...to explore the hostel. I entered the gate. There was a long corridor and on either sides there were rooms which were all locked.At the end of the corridor there was a open space where there were place for clothes drying. Though the hostel was empty there was still some clothes hanging. Some girls should’ve forgotten to keep it inside. Initially I. "It blew me away, too. All that time thinking that I was the only one and then finding out that a lot of other people were in the same boat was a bit much at first but once you get used to it, things are much better because of it."Obvious hope showed in her eyes as she said "are you sure about that? I think before I say another word I need to be convinced that you know what you're talking about."It only took a couple of minutes to do that. A few comments about her future career and what would. We quickly faced him and nodded. "Good. There has been a slight change in our plans," he continued. "It was originally intended to have you sit in on one of our classes, but a few teachers and parents have complained, and there's been a change." So we're not doing anything today?" I asked, a bit relieved. I didn't mind missing the class, but wasn't sure this was all that great an idea."Oh no... we've set you up in the auditorium. You'll be in front of the entire school." We must have looked. He has my checklist. He said he was planning ahead. He knows what I THINK I want. And he has his own ideas. He promised he wouldn't be rough. He could probably be a little rough. As... as long as he starts gently. As long as he's conscious of my needs. As long as he's in control of the tempo and doesn't rush me.I don't know... I just don't know how much I can take... how much I can handle. God. I need a safe word... and I need a promise from him to honour it... I need... I need... Elaine's eyes.