" That's all she said. I wondered if she didn't want to, or if she didn't want to say anything because she wanted me to get Shirley to agree to eating...her and the other girls first."Do you still want me to go see Shirley, and make her the offer?" Yes. Tell her she has to do me first. If she quits halfway through, I don't want to be the one who didn't get to try her." If we go through with this, that's it. She gets no more special exemptions after this is over. We give her what she wants, only. But Jamie ... It wasn't a thirteen year old boy I loved, it was him. I had no interest in boys before and none now. But he was the one I'd become infatuated with and I couldn't see it ending. I felt confused and unsure of what it meant. There wasn't any rationale for it. I told myself it was because Jamie was a boy, that's what was confounding me. Would I have felt the same if he were a girl though? I suspected I would and that just made it worse. I had plans and plots and ideas in my head, but. They already hadanother baby that she was still nursing. My brother went to work at 6am. His girlfriend wassitting on the couch watching the Spanish soaps onUnivision. She was hoping to learn some Spanish Iguess. She was wearing a bluejean jumper, and a nursingbra. I came and sat next to her. I looked at her faceand notice she was crying.“What’s wrong?” I asked her. She wiped her eyes, almostmaking the makeup under her eyes run. “I miss the baby.I know I told you guys. "Now, let's getanother drink and find some more trouble for you to get into."* * * * *The loud diesel engine rumbled as Asha and Ethan cruised into the night.Their fun evening had grown hazier the longer it went on. Ethan musthave drank nine or ten cups of the punch before they left. MichaelJackson's "Thriller," pulsed through the speakers and eerie moonlightcrept down on the road between patches of dark clouds.Even through his stupor, Ethan was growing aware that something was off.More than 10.