While Alex busied himself in his small office with the menus for the next day, Donald and I set to work on the kitchen, while he cleared the sink area... I washed down the worktables and swept and mopped the walkways. It was nearly ten o’clock when I waved goodbye to Donald and Alex was still scribbling away when I left the kitchen. I hurried up to my bedroom to strip out of the whites that had acted like a magnet for every available kind of stain that evening, showering quickly before setting. Once clean and aroused once more, I turn off the water and wrap you in a towel. I pick you up again and carry you back to the beautiful bedroom. I lay you down and get on top of you, hovering over you. I begin to kiss you passionately then kiss your cheek, jaw line, down your neck, to your collar bone. I kiss your breasts and lick them. I kiss your shoulders and down your arms. I kiss your hands and lay a kiss on each finger. I go over to your stomach and leave kisses all over it. I get. He examined it.'Drink it.' Hesitantly he raised it to his lips. 'Yes, it is my urine,' shesaid. 'Drink.' He had an aversion to this activity. His own mistress did not demand it.Nevertheless it was a direct order from a woman he'd been told to obey, andhe had no hesitation in following orders. 'You are drinking me,' she said. Drinking what I choose to give you of myself....not too fast, I don't want you to lose a drop.' He gulped down another mouthful.Lifting her heels she watched with narrowed. I’d be broken-hearted and wouldn’t want to live if ever I didn’t have you in my life, at my side.”The look in Jill’s eyes as her heartfelt words spilled out nearly made me start to cry all over again. I knew exactly what she meant and felt about the attractions of a simple life, the kind of simple life we’d had before we’d opened up our marriage to others. Looking at her sad but honest eyes I had a sharp moment of clarity about just how complicated our lives had become. So many other people.