‘I’m sorry about your parents and your break up. I’m happy to help you with the dog if you decide to keep her.’ When he got back to the house ...e called Tyler and asked where he’d gotten Rush. ‘From a breeder on a ranch.’ ‘Did you know that she’s some sort of cattle-herding dog?’ ‘Ah… yes, the breeder mentioned something about that.’ ‘Did he mention anything about her being very high maintenance?’ ‘Um… well, yes. He did mention that the previous owners returned her because she was um…’. Most of what I see as ‘humbling myself before my Dominant’, is desirable to me. Smiles. I want to be his. And I want to be considered. I want communication and I want my sexuality to be expanded for his and my benefit. I want to rely on him and I don’t want to feel guilty about it. Not because I am ‘easily led’, but because I want a genuine partnership. I want to find the safety and the structure within which I can be free. Free to be me. Free to become whoever I wish to be in the. I was soconfused, frightened, would she really leave me. I didn't deserve awife as pretty and smart as her, I knew that she could do better thanme. I just sat there stunned, looking down, trying to make a decision;it was impossible, like my brain was completely locked up."Shhhhhh," she whispered in a much softer, kinder voice. "Don't cry,you look so scared. Are you having a hard time deciding? It's a verybig decision to make isn't it honey? You see, I had to make a decisiontonight too,. Somewhere in the midst of this, the rush hit. And somehow everything was fine. And everyone was beautiful. And given the chance she would be everyone’s and anyone’s. Even perhaps with a man. And as she swivelled and turned, having long lost sight of Edie as the space around her swelled and shrunk with the patterns of her dancing, she saw in the corner a naked man’s buttocks thrusting in and out while two bare thin legs of an equally naked woman were pinioned beneath him. Merde! It was going to.