"You want to experience a big cock?" I replied back."I am sorry! I shouldn't had mentioned it," she replied back."There is no need to apologize. I act...ally want to hear more about your fantasy!" I said. "I don't know why I get so turned on just thinking about it. I masturbated several times to the thought of a younger guy ravishing my body with his huge cock to the point I nearly pass out. Maybe it has something to do with me getting older, or it could have something to do with Sheila from the. I'd used my looks as a weapon to manipulate those around me. I'd played on people's perceptions to make them see me as better than I truly was. I'd cruised through life getting everything handed to me, and grown up to believe such an easy path was my birthright.I wasn't perfect. I wasn't even going to try to be. I didn't yet know who I would become, but I was determined that the future me be someone who was fully grounded, who EARNED the things she received. I was determined to truly BE a good. I would love to." He took me out to a local restaurant. We talked and talked a lot about our interests and what we've been up to within the past 9 years of my life. After dinner he took me back to his apartment. I was surprised he had his own place already. Fresh out of high school and already had his own apartment. He held my hand and guided me to his room where we picked up the earlier conversations. "I always wondered why your pretty blue eyes always attracted my attention." He commented. I. I was at the stage where I would have gone looking, but I had no idea at all of where to look! Finally, after more than 10 days, my phone rang. It was Lee, she said she was calling to let me know she was all right. She and Carey had run off, they were planning on being a couple. I listened to her, and heard her out. I also heard my own voice begging, crying, loud, then soft. I struggled to control my voice, to not degenerate into a weak man, then she was gone..I held the phone, the dial tone.