I was completely lost with no direction, no clear path to take. I drove home, all the time hoping he would be there waiting for me, but of course, he ...as not. I spent all that night and all of Saturday just staring at the walls. I couldnt eat, I couldnt sleep, and I couldnt bare to think of my life without Gary. A couple times I thought of ending it all, but I couldnt do that until I talked to Gary. Maybe he doesnt want a divorce, maybe hes just blowing off steam, maybe hell forgive me. I. But I know yougained some knowledge. I saw it in your eyes. Use that knowledge yougleaned at my side. Apply my lipstick to your lips. I have waited forthis day from the day you were born a male. Grandmother is making me ahappy woman. A woman who can finally love her son. Go ahead, Jim, sealthe contract. I am pretty sure that Paris After Dark will go wonderfullywith your coloring."I looked deeply into Mother's eyes and saw something I had never seenbefore. My fingers grasped the tube even more. It seems more preparation is in order. You take a firmer hold on my breasts, pulling me tighter against your body. I can feel your rock hard cock pressing against my ass. You squeeze each breast moving your hand towards my nipples and then tug on the nipple, extending and then releasing it. Despite my anticipation of what is to come, the squeezing and pulling is almost therapeutic, like a stress relieving massage. You sense my reaction and start to focus solely on my nipples pulling and shaping. "No Miss Smith, this is not a dildo. It is a butt plug. It's not meant to go in your pussy, but up your pretty little bottom." That can't be right," I blurted, "It's way too fat to go in there. It would hurt!" It is intended to hurt, that's why we use it for discipline. To make sure you aren't injured, you have to be certain it's well lubricated." She pulled a small tube out of the same drawer. "Here, put some of this on it." She extended the thing to me, along with the tube.I was terrified. I.