Now, though, I was finding I could still be myself even in a group of people. Camilla somehow ratified me, made me at ease in settings where once I mi...ht have felt awkward, out of place. And from what I could tell, my presence completed her as well, transformed what had once been an almost regal bestowal of presence into something where she felt a true kinship with the others there.The "ice queen" had indeed thawed, and had been replaced with a woman who could be only that, a woman among other. ’ Brenda surprised him by saying, ‘That’s her loss,’ and just looked out through the side window. Chapter Eighty Seven ‘I won’t go in, Buck,’ Brenda said as they pulled into Buck’s driveway. ‘Please come in at least for a minute.’ ‘Buck, your wife is going to be all over you and won’t appreciate an intruder.’ ‘But you’re going to come up in conversation, I can guarantee you. I want her to know what you look like and for her to see that you don’t have horns.’ ‘I just want more of your horn, how. I was able to hide close to the service entrance and watch as he circled the parking lot, and finally he even paid a visit inside ... but not before picking up something under the seat. I felt suddenly very cold inside.Without any extra warning the big service doors opened while a van was driving out. I decided to improvise and showed the driver my employer card and waved my hand. Luckily he just waved back to me and I was inside the complex just like that. For some reason keeping a low profile. " Alison giggled. "I guess I'm that way now too, after you. I can blame it all on you. About a week after that I went to bed with a black model named Versana Pilcher. You know her? She looks a lot like Naomi Campbell, that beautiful black model with the long legs and the British accent?" I've seen her pictures. She's gorgeous." Have you ever been to bed with a black woman? I mean, I know you sort of prefer women, right? So, have you ever been to bed with a black one?" Once or twice," Laura.