It's the first time we'd gone out together as a group since the birth of the two babies. We were sitting at a table in one of South Beach's trendiest ...ightclubs. Costumed, dancing bodies were swirling all around us. The girls, back in shape after their pregnancies, had both decided to go sexy that night. They looked great."We leave the twenty-sixth. Our bareback luxury yacht. Leaving from the Virgin Islands..." As she talked I watched as Marisa's hand slid down off the drink laden table. A. "I understand that," Trent said, reaching down and cupping my chingently. Lifting it up, he forced our gazes to meet before he continued."But you are gay, aren't you Josh?"The tears were welling up again and I tried to choke out an argument butall that came from my mouth was a sob and four whispered words."My name is Jill."I cried really hard then. He took me in both his arms and held me close,making those small 'shh-ing' sounds that people do to calm someone whois crying. I put my arms around. "I suppressed a laugh and simply said, "Goodnight Bea."I listened as she settled into her bed, "Sweet dreams!", she repliedquietly before silence settled into the room.As I listened to the soft breathing of Britney beside me, I couldn'thelp by laugh at the absurdity of it all. I imagined that my firstnight with a girl would be memorable, but I never could have come upwith something as fantastical as the situation I found myself in now.Well, at least I survived by 'date' with Mike mostly. I replied “what about you then”. I went to her, hold her and said “see no need to feel shy. You have seen me doing that. Now it has been done the other way around”. She was embarrassed. I said “I know how lonely you are, I could help you, please give me a chance I could satisfy you there is no need to do this”. She looked at me. I started moving towards her to kiss her and all of a sudden she slapped me. She shouted “stay in your limits, don’t try to enter into my personal life”. I got afraid.