She still loved him as before, perhaps more with the knowledge that she had let her body betray her. She, alone, should suffer for this and she was de...ermined to protect him from the secret--no matter how it might hurt her.She knew she would never be able to curl up in his lap again and playfully nip at his ear with girlish innocence without thoughts of that horrible night. This would be her penance alone to bear and the scar would last as long as she lived. Time might dim the memory but could. He also found himself at dinner parties with their friends, sitting next to his overweight wife, looking at the wives of people he had known for twenty years, wondering what they were like in bed, knowing several of their husbands cheated on them with students, or female colleagues. Sex was often on his mind, and the lack of lust he felt for his wife now made his desire for other women more intense and his fantasy life more vivid, even resulting in looking at porn on the internet. Still, his. I have started to work as a registered nurse in the intensive care unit at a very large inner city teaching hospital on the night shift. Orientation was 3 weeks, and than I started doing 2 twelve hour night shifts a week. So, for the past month, I have not been able to meet my guys in the park, or meet up with Kim, or see my park ranger. I have been so horny, that I was going to go out of my mind. After doing my first 2 night shifts I was very tired and slept most of the days following. One time a girl who knew me, spoke to me over the phone saying how she loves masturbating over my MySpace Pics. Which is really crazy cause normally wierdos or other people would do that, so here is the reason about it….. 3 years ago, some girl named Kelsey said that she liked me, and that she saw my MySpace pics as sexy. She would tell me one time that she would go on my profile, she said that seeing my pics make her so wet and horny, and that she wanted me to fuck her so hard. So every chance.