I'd always been a bit nervous around them. I didn't know a lot of black people so I figured that was it. Now I realize that thudding in my chest whene...er a black man was near was the same thudding I got whenever an attractive woman talked to me. Lust, nervousness and a little bit of terror. As a straight white guy, these feelings are pretty alarming.I started watching interracial porn online and then wound up moving to interracial specific sites. I chewed through everything they made in. I won't do that to you again." No! That's not what I mean. You know how you push me away sometimes after you come in my mouth and I keep on going? It was like that. I don't know how bad it is for you, but it felt so good, so fast, I thought I was going to explode. There was just a hint of pain, but it stayed there, almost ready to take over. If you'd kept on even a second more, I think it would have really hurt. I don't think I could take that every time, but I don't want you to be afraid. I. I was stumped as to how I should react or what I should do. Because of my stupid reaction to the disks, I had put everyone's lives in danger. I knew then that I had to get Jubal and Farley off the island as soon as possible so they could raid that compound to take some of the heat off us. Maybe if the church was kept busy we could slip off the island and go ... where? Then it hit me what I was going to do. I needed to talk to Quanta and as soon as possible."Maurice, you can explain all of this. I didn’t care. This crazy bitch was not peeing in my mouth!Elizabeth turned around to face me, her arms crossed and silent. She usually kept her hands on her hips when she was upset with me, I always found it daunting. Her standing there with her arms crossed was even scarier.There I sat on the floor, on my hands, knees, and bum, like a dog when it sits. I didn’t have time to think about what she may do to me, her leg pulled back and kicked me so quickly, I didn’t fully realize she had kicked.