’ ‘There’s a tube of lubricant in the drawer,’ he said. ‘It’s still going to hurt, right?’ she asked. ‘Yes,’ he said honestly. ‘B...t I promise I will go slowly and we will stop if you can’t take it. And it is okay if you’re not ready.’ ‘I want to try, at least,’ she said. ‘Then I’ll be with you all the way.’ Elle reached over to open the drawer and right inside was the tube that Ben had mentioned and passed it to him. ‘Come closer, baby,’ he said and she leaned down until her chest was touching. I turn a corner toward another staircase… and I watch myself walking… slowly, step… by step… down the staircase… and with each step… I am going deeper…and deeper… into my peaceful… mind… and getting I am getting closer,… and closer… to a large,… door… at the bottom… of the stairs… When I reach the door… I am Mia. I enter the room and my mouth fills with thoughts of sex that flow through my entire body and flood my mind. I open my mouth and spread my legs. My head is full of sex and its making. ’ She mused. ‘Aubrey is not keen on classical though. He calls it cacophony music. Its years since I went to a concert. I can only put on my classical CD’s when he is not in the house, He becomes very irritable if I do. I should love to go to the Symphony Hall one day, but…’ Her voice faded away. ‘That’s a shame. The acoustics in the Symphony Hall are superb, and the CBSO is a great orchestra.’ She looked at me over the rim of her cup. ‘Do you go frequently?’ ‘It depends on the programme, but. And she asked what really happened between you. I did not answer to that and later we were watching a movie and she was checking on my phone. I was having some erotic images of south heroines she asked me what is this. Suddenly I took my mobile from her and did not say anything. After five minutes I said sorry. She said you should concentrate on your job and not like such things. I was really embarrassed that moment and she saw my face and told you should get married as soon as possible. And.