There’s enough, but not a lot and Jason was always tight with the money. He gave me what I needed, but not always what I wanted. So after a few year..., once the k**s were both in school, I hired myself out to clean houses to make a little extra cash for myself. These were mostly upper middle class families where both the husband and wife work. So I come in and clean while they are at work and my k**s are in school. I start in the morning around 9 and finish by 3. Slowly, methodically, I clean my. He wanted to try and put us back together. I had loved him once and I did still have some feelings for him. I told him if we got back together and he started using again I would be done with him forever. Then came tonight. I told him we were through, got up to leave and he grabbed my purse and said:“Damn it Tanya; I need the money.”I tried to get the purse back and that’s when you got involved.”I kept my eyes on the road and said “You meant it? You are done with him?”“I damned sure meant. Evan continued to amaze her with his perception and empathy. Becoming used to his role as reason giver he could be stern and authoritative but always tempered it with reason and kindness. He often ordered her to give him her opinion or feelings about certain things. She was expected to set up work schedules, pay bills, and make up shopping lists, all subject to his approval of course. Both of them knew he was allowing -- no, insisting — that she participate in their unique partnership, although. I inched forward and when he didn't offer to help, I carefully removed his underwear. I began to kiss and lick his balls as enthusiastically as I could. I felt the need to please him and thereby please Josh. But the truth is I very much need the job for which I'm auditioning. I need it even if there's a miracle and the things I'm doing now don't put an end to my marriage. I'll need it even more desperately if Rob kicks me out, which seems to be the inevitable outcome of my outrageous behavior.