But wait, would they feel the same about me? No, they couldn't possibly. I wasn't just twenty six years older like them, in this body I was the equiva...ent of fifty four years older if you consider when they knew and loved me in Jimmy's body I was a teenager.And what if they were wrong and the on again, off again magic forced them to love me even in this body? I absolutely refused do that to them. I imagined Vicky at thirty nine in love with some old geezer. No I couldn't and I wouldn't do that. The moment he looked me in the eye and asked if I would be his, really truly his, I was confused. With what had happened between him and Hannah the idea sounded ludicrous. I was still upset with him, but, as he explained himself, I knew I couldn’t stay away. He regretted it, I could see that much. This entire week he’s been more than forthcoming about everything he’s up to, offering me information when I don’t even ask. He’s trying, and it hasn’t gone unnoticed. I’m happier than I ever. I found out I am technically a god in early June of this year. I was walking home from playing backyard soccer at a park with some of my buddies. I went into my room took off my sweaty clothes and took a shower. After my shower I dried off and put some baggy short jeans and a red abercrombie t shirt on. Then I went and sat down on my couch and put on mtv. All of a sudden somebody from a few feet behind the couch said hello "Andy". I knew it couldn't be my mom or step dad they were on vacation. ‘That I seduced you because I am crazy about you. I have a lust for you that I cannot stop. Everyone liked the arrangement we had and we were all pleased with playing by Emma’s rules. We are ready to go back to that. But I need to be a part of it, not just a torture device she dangles in front of you and never let’s you have. I need to be a full member of the team not just the bosses little sister.’ I stared at Vivian for a long moment. There was pain in her voice and a true sense of caring in.