” he drew a deep breath, “not all this. They told him to ‘stick to the plan’. It was all staged. It was not just a random episode of violence....It was prepared. Do you really see Antoine being capable of acting on more than mere impulse? You must not forget I have known him for a while.”His other hand traveled to his shoulder, as if he was trying to feel the brand with his fingers through his shirt.“And this,” he added softly. “For Antoine and the rest, it would have been enough to beat me up.. , U.S. in twenty dollar bills inside a letter inviting me to Elmira, New York to discuss making some videos in Japan. There was no other explanation, just the date, time and place to meet at the bus station.Ten years ago, at 55, I had stopped working regular jobs and survived on odd internet writing and drawing jobs and making an occasional porn video. Don’t get the wrong idea. I’m not an attractive guy! I’m fat, hairy and look a bit like a pear with legs but there is an audience for fat, hairy. I had just taken a bareback load up my ass from a man I had never seen before and would probably never see again. He didn't think I was even worthy of a single word of gratitude for being his sex slave. A warm glow filled me, a glow of joy and satisfaction. I sat in the stall for a while to feel the lovely dripping of his cum out of my asshole and glory in the emotional wholeness I felt at that moment.I want to make one thing totally plain about this experience. I was not being "bi" or "gay" or. Will you stay and join us?Hell, Voice, you don't give me a real choice! With those options, I can't afford to do anything else but join you. I care too much for Beth and the men in my squad to allow them to die because I was selfish. Of course, I will join you. But, I also want to warn you that I am going to give you a swift kick in the butt the first time I meet you in person because you did not tell me this stuff sooner.OK, assume that we are in this thing for the duration. Will we get the.