It's quite ... gross. Whether you watch it or not is your decision. You've been warned." We were kidnapped and raped," Nat said. "Jeff rescued us. He ...r Captain Madison, or maybe both of them, killed Ingles. We're prepared. We've been told what happened at the base, but we want to see it ourselves." Okay. We'll show the knife fight first. After that, I'll leave. I don't want to see the fight outside the Retreat. I, like my husband, don't want to bring back the memories of Arlene almost dying.". But nothing would prepare me for what happened during the christmas break when she invited me to stay at her family home where she was living because i didn’t have anybody else to spend it with. I was from overseas and it was too expensive for me to go home for the short holidays. It was christmas day. It was a day no different from any other day for me in my single room at the college hostel. I was alone, but i was excited, because doreen rang me the previous night and had invited me to spend. But nothing can take away the memories, and I relish in that. ‘Let children walk with Nature, let them see the beautiful blendings and communions of death and life, their joyous inseparable unity, as taught in woods and meadows, plains and mountains and streams of our blessed star, and they will learn that death is stingless indeed, and as beautiful as life.’ ~John Muir Just as death hurts, with it comes a soothing feeling. As long as you can move past your grief. I do feel as though my dad. I also realized what a hard thing it is to be a mom, a single mom, always wondering and worrying -- about paying the bills, about making sure there's clean laundry, about getting the car serviced, about getting food on the table. Worrying about where the next commission was coming from to pay the bills, where the next home seller, the next house buyer, was coming from, worrying about getting the plumbing fixed, the house painted, changing the batteries in the smoke alarms -- so many things I.