I also hope that my ideas about gear and weapons are not a distraction. Yet for all of me I cannot see how I can keep from thinking that there has to ...e better weapons and methods of fighting the Sa'arm. Maybe to some people that seems odd, but to me it would be a horrid thing to think that I didn't expend every effort toward that goal. After all if all that is left of humanity and the Confederacy is what is hidden on worlds where the Sa'arm cannot survive then what use is it to survive,. " Would you two stop fighting, please?" Mom groaned. "I liked it better when our biggest concern was whether you two were having sex. What time is it, anyway?"I let Mom know, and she started to jump out of bed, then changed her mind."Good heavens, we slept in! How'd that happen?" she squealed in shock."Must have been all that sex last night," Karen giggled as she flung her sheet back, revealing a gorgeous body that I was beginning to lust after."Speak for yourself, young lady," Mom gently. ”Dad was outside when I got to Beppi’s. “Are you OK?”“I think so. But not a happy camper.” He nodded.We were seated right away. I ordered scampi and a salad.“What’s the problem?”“I think I should be happy. Between the art blokes and the ministry, I’ve more than enough income for the household, and Rachel’s articles pay for the cars and more. But I’m not content. And the whole business with the NNTT has got me even more uneasy. I thought the Noongar settlement would set an example. But look. If you refuse this opportunity you will be placed back in the general population and will not have a chance for this again."I quickly ran over the impossible choices before me and developed a headache as I tried desperately to choose between my conflicting fears.At the end of a minute the warden spoke again...."Well?"I managed to speak as they all watched me carefully....."I.....ah......well......" Yes?", she said impatiently, as she tapped her foot.My will broke loose at once and I gave in to.