Joan felt the thick liquid burn under her skin, and before she could do anything else, her motor functions were completely paralyzed. Though conscious... Joan was utterly powerless as this man whom she thought may be her next lover watched as she crumbled to the ground.Noting the awkward position in which she landed, Gerald was satisfied that the drug had done its work. Not that it ever failed. He then made himself a sandwich in Joan's kitchen. . ” Meghan looked up at Kathy. “I know how much he loves me. Even though he knows I can’t love him back the same way.” Meghan clasped Kathy’s hand. “It’s not Kevin. It’s me since John died I can’t.” Kathy nodded. “Even though he knows he put the needs of others before his need to be with me. That’s not a mobster, That’s a man who loves his people. I understood right then.”Kathy took Meghan’s hand in both of hers. “Did you make it right with him?”Meghan nodded. “Yes, Ma’am. I had a right to be. Sally's relations with women were always spontaneous. It could be a hairdresser, shop girl, or someone she met in a bar. I, on the other hand, not willing to risk exposure, planned my forays into gaydom very carefully. One of my favorite places to go and be totally anonymous was Palm Springs. With a variety of gay resorts and day spas, it offered me the secrecy I craved and the freedom of absolutely no-commitment sex. As we approached Palm Springs on the drive down from Santa Barbara, the topic. ‘So what do you think of her?’ whispered Sara leaning close as Terri went to the kitchen to use the phone and Martin ran upstairs for more weed. ‘Are you kidding me?’ I said shaking my head. ‘You always had a thing for the redheads didn’t you? I’ve been singing your praises so I hope you made a nice first impression on her. Martin’s really protective of her though, but I’ll be able convince him you’re the perfect guy for her, you just need to convince her of the same. I think you two would make.