And I lost her. "Happy Birthday, Cindy" I spoke as I unfurled the blanket and spread it on the ground. My words almost sticking in my throat, as I low...red myself down on the blanket. Opening the cooler, I retrieved the bottle and two flutes. Each glass was etched with our names. With the bottle opened and the drinks poured, I placed Cindy's as I always did at the base of her stone. Then with reluctance, I began to say my farewell to Cindy. "Cindy, you know I love you. I always will. Nothing. Her breasts are starting to fill out a bit more but is still a B-cup.Janet is my twin sister, but i just call her Jan for short. She's the smart one and looks it too. It's weird she has eye problems and I don't. She wears thick glasses. She's attractive and does well enough with friends, but still seems a bit introverted.Kim is my oldest sister and she's already in Jr. College. She's works out a lot and used to be in the swim team at my old high school. I hate how bossy she is with me, but it's. Now I feel like I am in the middle of a mine field with very little chance of escape. I try my best to put a good spin on things when I say, “Come on Liz, if Sam has updated her look then it’s even better for the station.”Liz looks at me and replies, “Bernie we need to go to Denver tomorrow and go shopping because I need some maternity clothes that won’t make me look like a cow.”I know better to say anything else so I reply, “Liz, that’s a great idea.”Present – Ben – Solving the problemThe one. She was not abusing them she was simply making life what she wished it to be which is what everyone does.My guilt vanished. For the first time in years the weight of what I was became lighter. The gloom was less.I wait.As the first wave of the change takes hold I look up at the moon. Not fighting it. Pain. Wracking my body as I become the wolf.A long howl at the moon when it is over and I run. Through the forest. The scent of game ignored. I am searching. I know the way but the wolf has to find.