”“Okay, Chad,” I said, “I like this game, but this has to be our secret. You can’t tell your mom or dad. Don’t want anyone getting the wro...g idea.”“I like secrets,” Chad said. “They can be so much fun. Now, what’s the first thing you would do if we were gay?”“Well, you are a sexy young man, the kind all gay men and many straight men adore, so the first thing I would do is give you a big sexy kiss.”I followed up, “What’s the first thing you would do?”“I’d kiss you back,” Chad replied. One of my evolving duties was to study the local paper and to know the prime-time network and HBO TV schedules, including what was new and what was just a re-run. I'd usually be asked about it every weekday by Tess, in the late afternoon.Tess refused to watch any of the so-called "reality" television shows, considering them all to be rip-offs inflicted on the public by network executives too cheap and too unoriginal to program something written by a professional.While her tastes in regular TV. To begin with, I want Bryce to fuck you!" ??? ? Nobody moved. Heidi blinked. One manicured nail tapped on a table top. ?"I assume that is some sort of metaphor?"?? ? ?"No man. I want to watch your youngest son, Bryce shove his sixteen year old dick into your cunt and fuck you. I want to film it for my own pleasure. If you and your family do as I say, I'll keep your dirty little secrets."??? ? ?"See here, that is the sickest thing I ever heard. You can't be serious," Dr. Donald protested. The. I realize now that I hurt her deeply and our moving away from each other started then. It wasn’t not having children but the way I treated her about it. We didn’t talk. The next thing I knew, she was heavily involved in her quilting that she had done as far back as high school. We would have used her quilting room for a baby’s room. That was part of my diatribe. She went in there to quilt and I would watch TV. She would talk with her friends and meet with them. I would watch TV and drink. I.