"You were very sure of yourself and very deadly ... When you killed the man with the machine gun, I wasn't afraid. I wasn't even repulsed. As ashamed ...s I am of my reaction, when you made him stop shooting at us and killed him, I was glad..."Those words wounded me. For a long time I'd wondered about my ability to kill, not to mention my willingness to inflict horrible pain to get the names of those who did those things to me.When Teri confronted me with her response to me killing those men, I. Paranoia is a pain in the ass (because it sneaks up from behind when you're not looking).I told Carol, "I want to go via the bank to check my account balance. I haven't had a chance to do that yet. I probably did have a chance when I was driving to town last night, but I didn't think about it then. Now I'm having trouble thinking of anything else, haha." It's good to have you back. You've had an amazing time." Yes and no. Watching Prof play was amazing. That lasted about ten minutes in total.. It was early Saturday morning, and Paige was sitting on her front steps waiting for him to pick her up so they could go to his cabin. At the appointed time he pulled into the driveway, waiting for Paige to make her way over to his truck but she just sat on the porch steps. He blew the horn twice and then rolled down the window and yelled, “Paige, get your ass in the truck. Don’t make me come get you.”“Alright,” Paige said as she meandered over to his truck, taking her time. She opened the door. John left the room, Jan promptly got dressed, left the exam room, stopped in the little bathroom in the hall to pee, then walked out and met me in the waiting area. She then made her appointment for the following week, we walked out of the clinic, and then drove home. Jan didn't mention the unusual method Dr. John used for her pelvic exam that day until several years later.Jan looked beautiful to me, even though she looked as if she had swallowed a watermelon whole. She had gained only 24.