When we were all snuggled in our wagon, preparing for sleep, Sam said that Prudence told her that she had let Clell see her naked for the first time l...st night."How did she do that?" I asked."She said she left a candle burning as she changed into her night clothes. She said he watched her like a hawk." I'll bet he did," I laughed."Yeah, she said he told her he loved her for the first time in a long time after they were in bed," Sam said.Monday, May 22, 1848Ed: Day 19 - On the Oregon TrailWagon. " Oh you picked out the yellow one , good , you look good in that one " " You probably just like it cause it shows off my boobs " she said harshly " Whatever , I'm outta here " She was already getting a sauced . I could tell by her tone , the more she drank the louder and more caustic she became. I hooked up with my buds , went to the game and returned home. We settled int he basement for some gaming it had been a couple of hours , it. But I'mafraid of what she'd say if she knew the truth." If she knew you were trans?" I whispered."Yeah. What if she's only interested in me as Ben?"I didn't say anything. I understood completely. I was having the sameproblem. Was Kathy only interested in me as Aaron? For a moment,getting in the middle of this matchmaking session was taking my mind offmy depression. But this reminded me of it. And it hurt again.An hour later I was on my way to pick up another cart of produce when Iran into. I was just taken aback.”A moody song came on the stereo, and Beau moved closer to me on the bed. The flare of whatever passed between us that night came back and I was helplessly caught in his heated gaze.“Why?”I blinked. “Well, I don’t know, exactly.”Beau smiled, but his eyes were serious and dark. “You have to know I’m not a virgin, Addison.”I braided a portion of my hair for something to do and avoided looking at him directly. “Obviously.”“But you are. Hence your reaction,.