I needed, desperately needed, to know what Steph was doing. I reluctantly pulled myself away from the porn show and moved to the next patio.The glass ...oor was open, but the drapes were closed and I carefully pulled one side open just enough to let me see into the room. I would have been happier had I stayed and watched the redhead. Steph and the man were kissing and slowly undressing each other. To their right on the couch the second man who had approached Steph while she was in the surf that. Jay was sat; eyes wide open at this information. She had never met anyone so sexually liberated and I think it made what had happened in the shop almost irrelevant. “So, have you had a gangbang?” she quietly asked Sara. “Oh yes,” Sara replied with a wink. “Only at the club though. You? “Jay didn’t answer straight away. She looked at me and I just shrugged.“Yes,” she replied quietly with a slight tipsy giggle. “Two nights ago. It wasn’t planned, it just happened with some men at our hotel.”“All. .." What price?" Heather..." Oh, Mom!" Heather erupted. "Are you nuts? You act like it's murder or something!" It's yours!" Jean panted, "Not his!"I sighed. "Nobody ever said it was..."Jean turned on me, "You can't just ... bully ... young girls!" she panted."I don't," I replied. "I bully YOU -- because you are no longer young but you ARE silly and stubborn! Where is your inhaler?" Not going!" Mom! Forget it! It's a dead issue!" Heather erupted. "Don't hurt yourself -- you're not accomplishing. She was sitting on the couch, with her back to me, looking out her back window."Kathy, " I said quietly as I reached for her shoulder. She hunched away from the contact. "Kathy," I repeated a little louder, " we need to discuss this." I don't want to talk about it," she mumbled."Look, you have a problem. That much is obvious, and I'd like to help. Pushing me away is what happened the last time and I let you do it. This time I'm not going to let you." I can't let you help me. I don't know how.".