Us. Weird, and I don’t know that that’s the right phrase, but I really feel happy when the three of us are together, not that I’m at all unhappy...with ‘just’ you.“I guess that I want and love you ... deeply. I love Heather, too, but in something of a different way, but ... I’m confused. I don’t know what it is that Heather brings to us, but it’s something ... something important, but not critical. That might be the best way to state it, but ... I don’t know.”“Well, either of us being alone with. Sure, there were videos on Cara's YouTube page "I dress my brother asWonderwoman" and "I dress my brother up as Supergirl" but as I went to anall boys Public School in London if anyone knew about those videos no-onementioned it. There is no more homophobic and transphobic an environmentthan an English Public School. And I was captain of the first fifteen asI was one of the toughest rugby players in my school and I was looking togo to Oxford or Cambridge. No one at school would talk about. Me: kon bol rha h.M bol rhi hun renu.M thoda attitude m bola, haan boliye.Renu: abi bhaiya ka call aaya unhone mere nu. Diye the tumhe.Me : haan diye the to.Renu: to nalayak call kyun ni kiya. ( vo thoda gusse m boli).Me : blnc kthm ho gya tha ( jhunt bola par chalta h)Renu: m dalva deti hun..Me : na oye na ye galti na karna e zaalim, Apna bi imaan hai.Renu: to kya.Me : to kya to na dalvao m kal dalva lunga.Renu: ok to fir kb aa rhe ho.Me : badi jaldi h.Renu: hmmm.Me: lene ki ya milne ki.Renu:. I know you do!" Yes--I mean--no! I like you for a--a friend! Not like--like this!" Yes you do, because you're Sheila now, so it's okay." Stop, please! Oh, my head's so--so--scrambled! I'm--Sean!" You're Sheila! Look at yourself! Feel yourself! You're a girl now, Sheila!" No--!" My lips gasped for air and reason inside a tight satin mold still trapping inside me the pounding taste of my first peck kiss and the crazed butterflies fluttering deep my stomach and the drums pounding deep my padded.