He still does, even now. I want him back. And in my bed with me at night. Just like it used to be. I was safe then. "I know he's gone. But he...won't really die until I do." Then Karen had to hold her while she cried again. For just as long. These were her Hard Things. That day was the hardest day of my life. Sitting there and not being able to hold her. Or even pretend to hold her while she listened to me talk to her on the phone. "Hope honey, Don loves you now, just like. I do so and just as I open my mouth to dart my tongue into hers she pulls away…“Dad…stop it….what are you doing?!!” Sarah has recovered enough from the shock of having her t-shirt forcefully removed, and then her breasts squeezed to stammer this out. “Craig is a fool!......Oh God Sarah I’m sorry!” No I’m not. I’m just sorry she has said no.So now I feel I have to apologise…otherwise I’m fucked! I don’t have the balls anymore to say “YEAH I started this and I wanted it, and I know its wrong but. Salad steak and potato as they went all out for us. Lots of dinner talk as we shared about past adventures and what to expect if they decide to get into the lifestyle. After dinner we continued the conversation in the livingroom area as we also discussed our time together and how they felt about it. She admitted how exciting it was but how hesitant she was to be with another man. Would her husband think less of her? Was she ready for that step? I assured her we would do only what she was. She did caught me off guard a couple of times and would blush every time it happened. We used to flirt with each other but today it was at a different level.We enjoyed our time and were supposed to leave for a movie at a theatre which was at a walking distance from there. Just as we started walking and had taken some steps across the road, it started raining. There wasn’t any shade where we could wait so we started kinda jogging towards the theatre.The rain got heavier and by the time we could.