We were both very tired. I slept. The maid finished all her chores and came and woke me up and gave me a glass of lime juice. She was only 20 and had ...ot yet married. So she said Anna (she calls me Anna) that was amazing I want to do it again.So it was lunchtime. We ate lunch and then went to the bedroom for another session. This time she thought of revenge. She started teasing me she slowly, stripped the night dress she was wearing. She pulled down her bra slowly letting me enjoy the view.She. “Dear god why? It is Eighteen Hundred and Two, not the dark ages, we seek to eschew the life of debauchery and yet you defile us.” she railed.“Sister Martha,” the old crow chided.“Madam how can you eschew that of which you know nothing?” I asked.“I have see the pain of childbirth many times,” she said.“And never known the delight of a good cockstaffing, that is no basis for debate,” I taunted.“Oh very well, the new novices await you,” she conceded.I went to their dormitory. It hit me like a. "What about Hell and Damnation?" Bill, you're fucking everything in sight." But I'm saved." The christian church teaches their people that sex is never to be enjoyed and to be used to 'Increase and replenish the Earth.' Does that mean, when you've full filed your duty and had kids, you're supposed to stop fucking?"There's another thing. The old Testament is 'Given for instruction in righteousness.' The old Judaic law says that a if man lie with a virgin AND NOT PAY HER FATHER THE BRIDE PRICE,. I am a proud man and have never begged for anything from anyone but god. I guess I was too proud to seek another chance to connect with my family. My weakness came down on you dearly and for that I am sorry. I was older and wiser, I should have done something to bring us together, even if as ex-family. I cried that Saturday after all of you left. I cried because I was still too proud to let you guys know how much pain I was in. I cried because I was helpless in front of this tumor. I cried.