He removed the tree and cleaned the yard. It became almost a ritual for them to spend an hour in the evening together on Sara’s porch talking and en...oying each other’s company. In time, their conservations became more personal and each began sharing their inner thoughts with each other. One evening, Sean told Sara that if he were twenty years younger he would give her a run for her money. Something deep inside Sara rose to the surface and for the first time in her life, she looked at a man and. What had she done? Had he really said it was okay? Gwen saw Beth’s expression and answered it “I promise, he’s fine. He called me on the phone and he asked me to do something for him tonight.” She pointed to the corner, and Beth saw the video camera with the light blinking. Gwen continued “He said he was perfectly willing to share you, as long as he got to see it. He did have one request though.”“What?” Beth was almost afraid to ask.“He wanted to see you and me together, and he wanted. You know, I have an idea.” He snapped his fingers.She watched him leave the entryway and heard him rummaging around for a while before he returned. She had managed to pull herself to her feet and was just about to put her hoodie back on. She stopped when she saw what he was holding. “Is that my wilderness expert badge?” she tried to speak despite her throat being sore.“If I give this to you, will you keep quiet about today?” he offered her a bribe. She nodded rapidly. “Good girl.” He repeated. That is what it was; I had no doubt. Her eyes gave me a gift, happiness, pure bliss that I had become addicted to. I would do anything to keep feeling it.In a kind of strange irony, the more I accepted it, the more I was able to keep it in balance. I was no longer plunged into depression when I didn't see her for hours during the day, or even if she didn't spend the night with me, because I knew that she would be back. I knew I was hers; for better or for worse, it was irrelevant.Just as she.