I think I'm seriously losing it.I've seen things. I wouldn't admit that to anyone, but this journal is just for me. I saw my Grandparents today. Crazy... right? They were just sitting on the sofa in our living room. They looked great and seemed happy. Granny told me to take my time, and it'll get better. Jesus, I'm gonna take advice from my delusions now?Journal Entry Number Five:Today was the same as every day. I don't like writing this stuff down, but I might as well. I guess it does make me. You have an erection. A boner, a woody and don't forget our friend the hard on. By the way, I showed you my boobies, can I see your erection?" Where did she learn these things?"No way, those were just boobs, not your reproductive system. If I show you that, I will be showing you everything."Her grin drooped a little but she came back with, "I don't have any problem showing you everything, you are my best friend and I know I can trust you." With that she started whipping off her shirt, bra and. And then it would do it again, and then again. Instead of spurting two or three times like an ordinary man, I imagined him shooting it a dozen times before he finished. One of my girlfriends jokingly told me that long men could shoot a longer distance. It had something to do with a longer barrel. I thought it a joke at the time, but now I found myself wondering if this was true. I wanted to find out for myself and cursed myself for not staying to watch, even though I knew it would have been so. My mom was off so I went home and maybe she would take me shopping or a movie. I went quietly into the house and I heard her moaning. I went back to her bedroom and I could hear a mans voice. The door was open and I looked in. My mom was on her back naked and a man was in between her legs eating her out. My mom was having sex and I was watching her. She had her legs draped over his shoulders and his face was buried in her pussy. His arms were hooked over her legs and he was holding her pussy.