"You want a spanking for a good report?"Ashley breathed a sigh of relief. "No sir." Come here," Cade put down the letter, extinguished his cigarette, ...nd pulled her close, giving her a tight squeeze. She held onto him with all of her might. He pulled away from her and looked down into her tear-filled eyes, brushing her hair back from her eyes, and kissing her gently on the forehead. "I'm very proud of you Ash," he said softly and then he hesitated, "and I love you."Ashley began to sob at his. I didnt speak a word against her and quietly agreed for it...she said that she would want to have my friend involved since she fantasized about him at times...I said Im ok with what she says...we initially didnt tell him that we both had this idea but use to bring him home when we planned to meet up...my parents were working so house was always empty after 9am...we didnt know how to initiate so she use to ask me to give some reason and leave the both alone in the room for sometime in initial. Her entire body tensed under anticipation. Her skin was covered in goosebumps and an array of red and purple spots, some already turning black. She shivered with her arms tucked in and her nails digging into the dirt. She flinched when he laid down on her. He chuckled into her ear and smelled her hair again.“P-please,” she whispered, “p-please ... n-no, no m-m-more ... please?”He pulled at the belt strap and whispered back, “You still have one more thing I want.”Neil grabbed two handfuls of her. And now I saw how this was going to end.The night before I left for Boston, as I laid in bed, the Monster, and the Voice didn’t war with each other. Instead they seemed to spur me on. Each in their own way, the Monster with strategy, and planning, the Voice with my reasons for going. For the first time in my life, I felt centered. I had read many eastern philosophers, and finally understood what they meant when they said if you know yourself, and your enemy, and you’ll win every battle. I was.