Tom asked her if she really never had seen anyone having sex on film or picture before. Aiza said that she never had seen a penis before, not hard lik... that. Tom asked her if she never was horny either. Aiza din't worte any answer, and Tom wished he had never asked, now she had to be really angry with him. Then the answear came. She said that she was horny all the time, but she also felt ashamed because she tought about sex and she admitted that se really liked what she saw in Tom's bathroom.. She told me I needed towrite down my story down both to help myself to understand who I am andto help other cisgendered men with their own real identities.As a guide she told me I needed to ask myself, "What has changed in mylife?"I look again at my beautiful glossy pink nails. "Underneath these nailextensions they are still my fingers," I tell myself. "Yes they lookdifferent but that is because I shaved all my hair off my hands andarms. They are still my hands and arms."My corset holds my. I can see the entire pool area as well as most of the deck and pool. Sarah was laying out reading a book in her bikini. It wasn't particularly skimpy, but she looked amazing in it. This became a regular thing, and it seemed like the bikinis got skimpier and skimpier. A couple of times when I knew John was out of town, she would be out there in a G-string. I often wondered if she knew I was watching her or if she cared.Summer officially hit, and Sarah was out on break. One day I was working in. Earlier that day Lightning had been out in the fields exercising. Now he was eating. In the dark distance she could hear him munching his oats. Again the woman stopped, putting one hand to her throat and breathing in with difficulty; Her flesh was tingly, crawling with... with excitement.Yes, that's what it was. She couldn't deny it. Excitement! But why? Why was she feeling this way about him? Out of her mind. She had to be out of her mind to have this kind of sensation racing through her brain.