She had thought a number of times that here was a chance to call it all off, to fail to turn up and continue life as it had been, but even in the prag...atic afterglow when the silver bullet had stopped buzzing and her breathing had returned she knew it wasn't an option that she was going to take. The click of the door closing sounded to Meg like the clank of a prison cell, not that it was a foreboding thing but a finality. Jonathan made a point, a conscious act, of the finality of closing the. It made me want to rub myself some more, but it almost felt so good that it hurt to touch myself there.I laid back on my bed while I caught my breath and tried to figure out what all just happened. As hard as I tried, I couldn’t wrap my brain around it all. The only thing I knew for certain is that I had to clean up and change my bedding so mom wouldn’t know what just happened.I changed my bed and went back to bed, the taste of my cream in my mouth and thoughts of my mom rattling around my head. Ollie paced the floor, not ready to sit in the chair his wife had assigned him. He lectured each of us individually and as a group. He made accusations and leveled charges, saying that we could not be trusted and that we would all pay for our failure to respect his orders."We drank too much," Petri admitted. Ollie and Rosita turned to her."Randy took us to a motel to get cleaned up. We had been sick and messed up our jeans. He washed them and let us get some sleep but I guess we didn't wake up. Then she asked Kathy and Ken to come with her into the library. Seating Kathy on the same chair Andy had posed in, she asked Ken to take off his bathrobe and positioned him in a manner similar to Jack's pose.Sitting on the floor, she picked up the sketch pad she always carried in her case and began work on a charcoal sketch. Andy and Kris followed her in and stood behind her, watching. As she watched the girl's hand move so deftly, Andy realized how incredibly talented Barbara really was. Then.