As I grasp you, my whole body shudders beneath you, bucking and spasming as lightly as I can so as not to dislodge you. Your body keeps me firmly pinn...d beneath you, keeping me from going anywhere. After that, I feel as though my brain has leaked out of my ears, and you take over my body completely. I feel you thrust, I feel you move, I feel you poke and stroke and trigger pleasure nerves along every bit of my insides. You send shafts of pleasure into my fingertips, into my nipples, up my. Last night I got caught up in a fit of rage. I introduced the group of boys known as ‘the losers.’ Brent was a tall dork with a bad haircut and raging teenage acne. In his memory I was not girlfriend material. He hadn’t dated a girl and he was a sophomore. I entered the equation as a delinquent freshman pretending to be innocent. Another night I will tell you the story of devious behavior before I was a freshman. How I lost my virginity is a totally different story. Being in the gifted. The last call was from the guys on the island near Friday Harbor. "This is Chuck, what do you guys need?"The voice on the other end said, "Nothing now. We had some people who came to visit us last night. We sort of had to make them leave. Our contact called and warned us we might get some visitors who would be difficult to deal with. They left and were last seen on their way out to sea in their boat. There were only four of them, so it wasn't a big deal. Our only question is do you think there. ’ ‘It’s…it’s going to sound strange. But please tell me honestly.’ ‘Go on.’ ‘Am I a…’ she tenses, ‘…a bad person?’ My throat tightens. Don’t do this to me, baby. Don’t say anything more. See, I knew why Adam asked me that. I knew why he was so terribly unnerved. I knew why he felt that great, shameful uncertainty. He asked because none of our justifications for this thing have offered any excuse for just how much he was enjoying it. So please, Melody. My Melody. My love. Dont let me understand.