.”I smiled and said “Well, I’ve been holding back because I didn’t want to pull you in the wrong direction or pull you away from your husband,...“Lorraine, I love you, in every sense of the word, I love you.”She stared at me with an admiring gaze and said, “It’s true, Maggi said it, I didn’t believe it, it’s true...”I asked, “What’s true?”Lorraine sat up and said, “Maggi and Natalie said you could love without jealousy, possession, judgement, guilt, pain, or any of the other bullshit that people. “How big is Jack or Ed?” I asked her.“Um, Ed is” Sam said holding up her index fingers and indicating about 6 inches for her half brother, “and Jack is really small dad! He’s like...” and she held up her index fingers to show about 3 or 4 inches.I laughed, “No wonder your mom wants Ed!” and Sam laughed too.“So what about you? What did mom mean?” Sam giggled.I was sitting by her feet so I had been absently rubbing her calf and ankle as we continued to drink wine. When she asked about the size of. You lead me over to a curtained off area I hadn’t noticed when I walked in, you told me to strip and hand you my clothes. I give you my dress but you let me keep my heels on. You then slip a collar around my neck…and I start to ask you what the hell is going on. You just look at me and say…you’re paying your bet. You clip a leash onto the collar. A friend of yours appears next to you and you hand over the digital video camera you brought with you. He steps back, turns it on and pans around. "Women who do that have been cool forever." It isn't about how old I am now, it's about how old I was then," I suggested."How absolutely wonderful," Michael said. "Did you know that you loved doing it when you were really young?" No honey I knew I loved how the men treated me after they knew that I was willing to do it." I made a joke of it. I wasn't really all that young, but I did love how men loved it. That part at least was true. I was also young enough."So are we going to find out what you.