Maybe they would reincarnate me into the baby inside her. I think I was starting to go a little crazy. I didn’t care. I just had hope for some re...son. If she had the baby, if I died, everything would equal out. I didn’t know why. Seven days of questioning everything I had ever known was getting to me. That baby was part of me. Camryn was my other half. The baby equals one whole.I didn’t want to live as one half. There was no room for me now. My purpose in this life was over, I. ‘I don’t ever want to be her again.’ ‘What?’ It’s staggering how blunt inquiring for clarification is. ‘Her. The girl I was a few minutes ago. I don’t want to be her ever again.’ ‘I don’t you to be her either, but I think that’s beyond my ability to help, sweetheart. I think you need real help.’ ‘I don’t want therapy! I don’t want to talk about it! I just want it to go away!’ She growled into my chest. ‘I know. I know you do. But this isn’t a matter of something you want, this is a matter of. One day as he was leaving I hid in the restroom as it directly across from her room and I came out as soon as they were in the hall and I saw that the bed and the sheets were all messed up. One day we went to my grandmother’s house and uncle’s wife was living there at the time because my uncle was in the Army and on leave. Well, who is delivering mail at this time but my mom’s boyfriend. Well my aunt who was young and very pretty says “hey, we got a new mail man, and boy is he cute” as I looked. ~~*~~At the dinner table on Monday, Mom told me that Mrs. Garcia needed some chores done for her.”She had called me and requested your help. Since her son has moved out and her husband is away on business so much, she has a lot of small jobs that need to be taken care of. She mentioned that the pool needed care and since you take care of ours, maybe you could help her out. Are you doing anything Tuesday?”“Not that I know of, Mom. You know I would be happy to help her, she is a family friend.”My.