I went through almost a fifth before I realized that it wasn't working. If anything, I was more sober than when I started.I was also as stubborn as al...ays. I knew for sure now that I loved Connie. This was affecting me almost as bad as it had the first time. Unlike then, I decided that this time there would be no attempt to change her mind. It was time to let go for good to save what sanity I had left. I spent the rest of the night drinking coffee and reminiscing about the time we had together.. Covering them I sat down beside him draping my leg over his. He caressed it lightly with his soft hand moving his hand up to my center and covering it with the palm of his hand “damn. Girl, your on fire! Maybe I need to put that out for you. Lets go into the bedroom where we have more space” Standing up he took my hand and lead me into my room. I laid down on the bed and he joined me. Laying on his side, As I lay on my back, he caressed my entire body. He wasn’t in any hurry. But I needed. Any image of a woman being made love to by a man would bring such an acheto my breast that breathing became difficult and my jealousy of the womanthreatened to envelope me.I had been crossdressing since the age of three and like a lot oftransgendered people my feelings had intensified with the years. I knewthat something had to happen but what would that be?Then I read the 'advert' on the web. It offered to transform successfult-girl applicants into women to take their place in a wonderful. After 10 minutes the door opened again and an other guy who follwed us in car came out from other room with my wife’s paticot in his one hand and its nara in other smiled and told me “ye le apni bibi ke paticot me nara dal kar rakh chudi ke bad pehna ke wapas kaise le ke jaye go” then suddenly he turned to leader and said guru mast mal hi guru jaldi chodo phi hum logo ko bhi chance do and he went inside again. I was hearing dim some voices from other room but could guss wether my wife’s voice.