This saved us from having to go to the public pool. We got to see the girls and their moms in bikinis. The rule was that we could not swim there witho...t an adult so we would have to get someone to watch us if Linda was not around. Sometimes there would be alot of k**s there and sometimes not. As I would swim I would keep a close watch on Linda, I always got a boner. Sometimes she would be in a bikini, sometimes a one piece or maybe shorts. Once we all hit puberty, we guys would check all the. ‘Please Jake, just let me go.’ I asked. I sounded and felt defeated. Nothing I could do would ever be right. I would never be right for him, I am too weak, too lost. It would be too unfair to him to have to save me, to fix me, I’m not savable, not fixable. ‘I am not letting you go, I won’t ever let you go.’ His words confused me. Not letting me go I understood, I was ready to hurl myself off the building, it was the not ever letting me go part the confused me. Why? Why would he never let me go?. Addison went off to the bathroom to vomit. She returned and asked Andy to get her painkillers for her headache. ‘Where will I get painkillers at this time of night?’ ‘In my handbag.’ ‘Oh.’ ‘I sometimes get headaches.’ ‘Oh I never knew that.’ She hiccupped and said he’d never asked. Andy lurched to the bathroom and missed the bowl and decided it was easier to aim into the bath and completed one of the longest pees he’d ever had. He returned to the bedroom to find Addison was in bed dressed in. I stepped in front of Shelly, my chest inches from her nose. As her gaze rose to meet mine, I said in a very low but forceful voice, "I personally do not appreciate ethnic slurs, regardless of the skin color of the person saying it. Being black does not give you any rights. Being a human being does. Being an American does. Being an intelligent person most definitely does. And being willing to work for what you want, gives you rights as well."I moved back a step, but my eyes never left hers..