And then I did something unexpected. I started crying. All my years ofbeing alone, not accepted because of my size, rushed from me and Isobbed. Linda ...icked me up from the floor and held me on the couch as I continuedcrying. She whispered that everything was okay, that mommy would takecare of little Nancy.As I sit here writing in my diary, tears are welling up in my eyes and Iwish my mommy Linda was holding me. Strange how lonely and scary myapartment seems to me now. Back to the weekend.. . her voice trailed off as her eyes lowered and glancing down I saw I was showing more than I should. She took a gulp but still stood there staring, “do you like?” I asked, “er yes” came the reply, I grabbed her by the wrist why don’t you come in, she pulled away, no I can’t, mums coming round, we’re going shopping but by this time I’d yanked her in to the hall and swung the door closed.You can touch it if you like, she tentatively put out a hand, it’s so much bigger than Dec’s (her husband). I betthe neighbors just love this on a Sunday morning."I set a cup of coffee in front of her and said, "You should see the newduty roster." I pointed to the pages on the table.With the new 'Detained' cadets the six highest ranking female cadetswere being tasked with weekend duty on a rotating basis.After showers and breakfast they got ready to go. Sophie and I were outfront taking pictures, and promising to send copies to everyone'sparents. They loaded the bus and were on the way by six. She told me she want to talk to me for a while and she asked why I was glancing at her like that? I was taken aback and I did not reply she came near to me held my hand and told not to worry and she will not tell anyone and neither she had not told anyone about that incident. But I was nervous which she noticed, she put off the light in that room and came and sat near me holding my hand. She asked whether I was attracted sexually to her or just looked like that? Whether I read any sex book?.