It's all I can do not to collapse under the horrible strain. The preacher glowers at me and points a bony finger in my direction."Loved by everyone, h... was, except you!" he accuses. I'm too ashamed to respond, and I drop my eyes to avoid the angry crowd. "You killed him!" the man shouts."Killed him!" comes another voice."He's dead because of you!" cries a third.The weight crushes me; the grip on my heart tightens. More and more voices hurl accusations at me, but one becomes a hellish. The DJ was cool and was playing amazing songs. I saw Karan leaning towards mom and saying something in her ear. She giggled. Then they started to dance little close and in few interval of time, I can see them both saying something in their ear and laughing and giggling. After few minutes I saw Karan is holding my mom’s waist and her hands are on his shoulder and they have moved more close and dancing.My heartbeat was fast and I was getting sweat in that chilled air-conditioned club. Suddenly. ..He breezed through his school courses since, as Jennifer,he had taken the same classes before and done very well inthem. But now his classes were a snap! Teachers foundthemselves pleasantly surprised by the improved Jason. Tothem, he had done all right for the first half of the yearbut now was hitting his stride! (Not that his teachersexpected any less, his IQ, like his father's, had been veryhigh, but now he seemed to be finally applying himself.)They were almost right. The new Jason really. She asked the time looked out at the world and said “let`s sit out and have our drink” a notion I was happy to fall in with, “saying you go I will put on some PJ`s!” she smiled a wicked smile and said “who`s going to see you then?” Laughing I reminded her she had dressed, and in reply she said that “she had only put the PJ`s on for me to enjoy taking them off for her!” We staggered outside to the recently acquired big and heavy glass topped table and the cast iron chairs, where we sat, me.