I put down the kilt and take care of him, selling him a suede flogger and a collar. He said he would send his sub over in a bit so the collar could be...fitted.After he leaves, I look over at you."Someone you know I presume?" Yes, Mistress. Someone I know well. He would have recognized me for sure, even if I did not talk. We were together for about six months." Well, it is not a problem, kitten. If he returns, you can either leave or just do what you did this time. You know I have no desire to. He trues was one of those black guys she had heard about. Joe leaned over and whispered in her ear, lets get out of here. To Kathy's surprise the words "yes lets" slipped from her lips before her brain thought of what that meant. Joe took her by the hand and led her from teh table as Joe's friends hooted and remarked about Joe going to get lucky. Joe led Kathy from the bar adn Kathy asked where are we going. Joe replied that he knew of this motel around the corner and he would get a room. All. She didn't take her stretch pants off, which made it more erotic I think, and I came after a few minutes, cleaning up with some paper towels. After I thanked her and we continued partying and never mentioned it again! I've since lost touch with her, but I'd love another shot at sniffing her butt! Another time, I was on a school trip. We had two buses and I had to use the bathroom before we went, leaving my friends at the front door, waiting to enter the bus. When I got out, everyone had got on. Once I took a knife in my handand wished that I could cut "this perversion" out of me and literallykill the part of me that wanted to be a girl. If I had been sure that Icould stop the desire by cutting off a finger, I would undoubtedly havedone so. Looking back on my life now, I wonder how much energy andwillpower I spent trying to look and act "normal" and trying tosuppress a big part of my soul.*** Early adulthood, life struggle, the giftThe inner conflict of rejecting a part of my.